From Hatred to Love

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Love, to be real, must cost. It must hurt. It must empty us of self.” – Blessed Mother Teresa

Chapter 1 – Forced Love

How are we ever going to fix this?

Maybe we should start from the beginning?

Maybe you should since you suggested it.

Okay. We woke up one morning in my room fused together. We were confused for a while before we heard a voice say, “Because you have hated each other and have secretly wanted harm upon one another, you will be fused together until you learn to love each other”. And here we are.

That’s overly simple, James. What about the fact that part of my house is fused to yours? My clothes are even fused to yours. Just look at our wardrobe. Everything is fused together.

Don’t worry about it, Julia. At least it all matches.

But we’ll have to go to the bathroom and take a shower together! We’ll see each other naked!

That’s definitely the worst part.

Ow!

Ha! When you use our hand to hit me you still hurt yourself.

Ow!

Doing it again doesn’t help and I know that you feel that it does. I’m still somewhat surprised that the doctors said that our bodies are completely fine together like this.

Sure, but we have to walk together with a hood on all the time with our heads down.

Speaking about that, do you want me to control our legs when we walk because we have trouble doing anything unless we consent to let one person walk?

I don’t care. We both get tired even when we let the other do something.

I’ll do the walking then.

I’ll do the talking.

You’ll do the talking? No.

Why not?

Because you’re terrible at talking with people.

No, I’m not!

Yes, you are. Who has more friends than you do? Who got a promotion because I was a pseudo-human resources expert? That’s right. I know the thought crossed your mind.

Shut up. What am I going to do then? Just silently scream in our mind?

Oh God no. I’ll let you talk if you know more about something than I do.

But we both know the same things now.

Are you really going to pass up this opportunity to talk?

You can stop me from talking at any time.

And so can you so you’re going to have to trust me. Okay? Come on. We can’t do anything unless we can trust each other.

Fine.

Good. So how about we get ready for work now? We didn’t take a shower yesterday, so let’s-okay. You know for a fact that I don’t want to see you naked. Okay! Now you have a self-abuse problem. So, do you want to strip us or-

I’ll do it. Just close your eye.

I can still see out of your eye.

I’ll just look up then. Hey, make the water hotter.

It is hot.

No, make it hotter like this.

It’s too hot!

I don’t feel it.

I do!

Good.

Who’s going to be the one who’s going to wash us?

I’ll do it.

I didn’t know you wanted to touch me like that.

It’s not that! I’d rather you not touch me is all.

It’s still our body.

Whatever.

What kind of genitalia do we have?

It’s not mine and it’s not yours. I don’t want to think about it. Just stop thinking about it.

Okay. That’s finally done. I think we should wear this simple outfit.

Nope, we’re wearing this.

Who cares what we look like?

I do! I’m a woman of business unlike you.

Do women of business look like us? That’s what I thought. What’s for breakfast?

Cereal.

I’m fine with that. Except not that kind.

What’s wrong with it?

It’s just plain healthy cereal.

What are you four years old? Why does your cereal have to have marshmallows in it?

Because it actually tastes appetizing.

It doesn’t taste bad to me.

It does to me.

It’s just your imagination.

Whatever. Okay, you bathed, clothed, and feed us which is basically what a normal woman is supposed to do. Don’t hit me-us. Let me take over for walking.

I still don’t feel comfortable going out at all.

But we got to earn that bread for ourselves. It’s not too bad.

I feel so awkward being out here like this. This is going to be a pain if this carries over into the summertime.

Ever hear of short-sleeved hoodies?

I still don’t want this to go on for long.

And I thought you were starting to like my company. We have to do this regardless of how comfortable we are with it, so we have to start loving each other.

I’m not going to marry you.

You don’t have to. Love isn’t all about marrying.

I hope that’s not what God wants.

Me too. See? We’re starting to agree with one another.

But what are we going to do now at work?

Whatever we usually do. I think we should-

No, we can’t talk to anyone like this. Only our boss knows about this.

He would’ve already told most of the people here by now knowing him.

What an idiot. We already have people looking at us.

Don’t mind them.

“Hey, James! Or should I say, Julia? Or both?”

“Hey, Nick!”

Are you still mad at that the boss is paying me more than you?

I went to college and work harder than you do. Of course I’m still mad.

I didn’t need that stupid college “education” to be successful in life. All I needed was my family, friends, and my God-given talents. Don’t be mad because I got past where you are with more effort.

I’m going to beat you to a pulp when we’re separated.

You would still be hating me then.

I’m going to lovingly beat you to a pulp. Sound better?

Yep. This is where we decide which of our jobs are going to get done.

Okay.

Ow!

What did we do?

We fell on our butt because we took control of a different leg to go in a different direction. Let’s just decide what we’re going to do first.

I’ve got tons of work to do to help dozens of people within the business and outside of it. At least I try to help others outside my sphere of friends, unlike some people.

Well, you can’t do that if your building burns to ashes. Most things in the building are working fine but I have been seeing abnormalities in it. I should probably check it out before it gets serious.

What? I’m not going to get dirty while wearing this.

You knew we were going to. Don’t lie.

Can’t we just get my work done first?

Let me just check out the systems in the building. Maybe we won’t need to get dirty today.

I always see you dirty.

Yeah? Well you’re always jealous of me, and I’m not making that up, so let’s go.

Fine.

Okay, well everything seems to be better than yesterday. It looks like shutting off some of the systems fixed some of the issues, but there’s still one thing we have to get dirty for to check out.

What? Why?

Because it could cause a major fire if we don’t at least check on it. I adjust and upgrade these things from time to time so that you can “help” people like you say you do.

Let’s just get this over with.

It’s not that bad up there.

To you maybe. It’s filthy up here.

I’m glad you think so.

Why don’t you clean up here? Isn’t that a hazard or something?

Not if it doesn’t affect anything. I’ve been in worse places, so this is nothing to me.

I can’t stand being in here.

Just keep your mind off it then. There are only a couple more things I need to check.

Was that a roach?!

Yeah, I named him Bob.

Why don’t we call an exterminator?

Because buildings like these always have bugs in them. They come and go and if they feel comfortable, they stay.

But shouldn’t we get rid of them?

This is your first time noticing them, so they’re not a problem to you. They’ll be gone soon.

That’s a relief.

Okay. It looks like there isn’t anything wrong here.

So we came up here for nothing?

We came up here to check on something that could’ve been important. I’ve been doing this for months and you haven’t had any problems, which is another reason for my promotion.

Okay, let’s just get out of here. I think I’m going to get sick.

That’s just your imagination.

No, it isn’t. I feel like I need to take two baths after doing that, but I have to get my work done.

This is going to be so boring.

It’s not that bad. It’s just how work is.

My work isn’t like that.

Your work is disgusting and dirty.

But at least it doesn’t put me to sleep. This sucks so much.

Shut up. I’m trying to concentrate here.

Did you notice that the others aren’t saying anything?

The boss told us that he told them not to say anything or he’ll fire them.

It’s probably why we’re not on the news right now.

Do you ever shut up?

No, that’s why so many people like me. I’m also trying to keep us awake.

I don’t need your help.

Fine then. Nap time then.

Wait…stop…Ah!

Told you this work is boring.

Just try to stay awake a little longer. I’m almost done.

How come you never liked talking to me when we first met?

Because I wanted to concentrate on my work.

And that’s why you don’t have friends. How can you say you want to help people when you don’t even want to talk to them?

How can you say you love making friends when you don’t care about helping other people?

Hey, at least I do help people. At least I don’t just think I’m helping people because people tell me I am when I’m just sitting behind a desk while being miserable. Hey! Control yourself! People are really watching now. I’m sorry, okay? I can be a bit too blunt. I get that. You help out people in your own way and I do it in my own way.

Look, that paper you made is probably going to convince the company to help out people in need. Do you know how many lives you’re going to save?

Stop wiping away my tears! I can do it myself!

Okay.

…I’m sorry for that outburst.

It’s fine. I get it.

“Hey, uh…Julia? The boss wants to see you.”

“Okay.”

This is my fault.

I started it. Don’t worry about it.

He might fire us.

I don’t think he’ll do that. He probably just wants to talk to us.

“Hello, James and Julia.”

“Hello, Lloyd.”

“Who am I talking to specifically?”

You’re better at talking.

“James.”

“I can hear it now. Did you know that your voice changes when one of you is in control?”

“I didn’t notice that actually. Thanks for pointing that out. What did you want to talk about?”

“I’m letting you two or one have a little break from work to get used to being together like this.”

“Was it something-”

“No, it wasn’t anything you did. Besides, I know you don’t get aggravated, James.”

I messed up bad.

“It’s not Julia’s fault she got angry. I said some things to her that I shouldn’t have.”

No, you’re right. Don’t even think about using this against me.

“It’s not that she lost control. I just want you two to get better acquainted with the way you are now. You’ll be paid during your time off as well so don’t worry about that.”

“Thank you so much.”

“Don’t worry about it. Just try to get adjusted soon so I can have my two best workers back.”

“You got it.”

See? That wasn’t so bad.

That’s because you were talking.

I didn’t say anything that you wouldn’t’ve.

I wouldn’t have defended you.

That’s true but I’m glad you’re honest.

Let’s just go home. I’m beat.

That wasn’t such a bad day of work. I thought it was pretty interesting.

It was okay.

At least we learned to be caring towards one another.

I wonder how long that will last.

Come on, be more positive.

Sure.

More positive!

Very sure. I’ll take that. So, what do you do after work?

Shower, eat, then sleep. At least it isn’t as awkward taking a shower now.

Uh, you’re making me look-there we go.

Sorry. It’s a habit.

It’s fine. I don’t mind too much. Don’t hit me.

I wasn’t thinking about it for some reason.

See? We’re getting comfortable with each other now.

A little too comfortable.

What do we have here to eat? Uh, oh! I still have leftover pizza here. I’ve been craving it.

I’ll make us something. Hey, stop making me crave pizza!

It’s pepperoni and sausage.

That does sound really good. Wait, no it doesn’t. Stop making me want it. I don’t even like eating pizza.

You what?! You’re going to Hell.

For what?

Not liking pizza. It is one of the many foods God inspired humanity to make. Let me fill your mind with thoughts and sensations of the blessed food.

You already take up too much of my mind, but it does sound appetizing. Okay, I’ll try it.

So? How does it taste?

I’m not sure if you’re making me taste it this way or not.

I’m not doing anything.

Then it tastes great even though it’s just heated up again.

See? I told you.

Okay. Fine. You were right. Now it’s time to get some sleep.

Today wasn’t so bad, right? I don’t mind being with you like this as much now.

I can’t say the same.

I know you’re lying.

Don’t think I actually like you now.

Well, at least we’re off to a good start.

I guess so.

I’m glad that you agree. Good night.

Good night.

 

 

 

The Bible tells us to love our neighbors, and also to love our enemies; probably because they are generally the same people.” – G.K. Chesterton

Chapter 2 – Learning to Love

Time to wake up, Julia. Huh? Why did you think of your ex-boyfriend? He seemed like a nice guy.

He wasn’t. Do you see that orange fox on my side of the bed? He got me that one Valentine’s day. Not because we were in a relationship, but because we’ve been friends since we were kids. We were each other’s only friend for years. The only other kind of love we felt was from our parents. We or at least I thought we were going to be friends forever. I thought we were going to graduate from college then get married, but then…

He cheated both on you and in college.

I never heard from him since. I keep this fox by my side to remind myself not to get my hopes up, even when it comes to people I love.

That’s cold but I understand. I have my own stuffed animal too. Do you see the white rabbit on my side of the bed? That was one of the only things my parents gave me to show me that they truly loved me. They worked in services that helped people, so they were always busy and never home. I keep this bunny to remind myself that them and people, in general, can be compassionate. I seem to have a more positive reminder of people than you do.

I see that. Even though your parents weren’t always there for you, it seems like you turned out exactly how they wanted you to. But me…

I’m sure your parents are proud of you and that ex of yours has been regretting his actions ever since. Please don’t put yourself down. You’re not a bad person. You just need the right person in your life.

Maybe you are that person.

Maybe.

You sure do have a lot of big textbooks over there. Read anything interesting?

You know.

I want to hear what you think of them.

They’re interesting to read. It helps me learn more about people and their motivations. Some of them are business and math books, which I know you find boring.

It’s kind of interesting from what you remember. I recognize some of the ways of thinking from my comic books and manga.

Those are children’s books.

And there we go.

What?

We were getting along so well and then you had to say that.

What makes them adult besides violence and sex?

The themes of good versus evil, moral responsibility, man playing god, pushing people to their limits, and the extremes someone would go to for their love.

That sounds interesting. Can you give me an example?

There’s this one series that’s about this crybaby who gets the powers of a devil. He becomes totally different after that, but things don’t go well as demonkind starts to wipe out humanity.

Okay. I’m remembering it through your mind and it seems good. It’s really dark.

How about something lighter? These comics are about a man who has an alien attached to him. The two go on adventures as they protect the innocent and punish the wicked. He’s a kind of lethal protector.

Looks fun, but it seems like a different take on the previous series that you told me about.

Okay, so how about this. This series is about this black swordsman that’s after this guy who was once one of his closest friends and well…it’s a long story, but you know what I’m trying to summarize.

You like a lot of dark stories.

But I do like my light ones too. Like this one series about this girl whose hair looks like a four-leaf clover. I especially like the part where she meets this guy with white hair that she absolutely hates.

Ha! That is so cute.

Alright, now enough about that. Do you want to get up?

What do you want to do?

We could go to the nearby church I usually attend. We could ask God for answers since He put us in this situation.

Do we have to now? I’m comfortable like this.

I didn’t know that you liked being with me in bed.

Okay. We’re going.

Haha. That did it.

I’m surprised that this church is doing so well in such a filthy area.

God works where the sinners are at and there are a lot over here. It’s a good thing it’s doing so well here. No one bothers it at all compared to the other places around here.

Have you ever been jumped in this area?

Once maybe twice when I was a teenager, but we should be fine.

And if we do get into trouble?

What? Do you want to make a bet? You already have my body and everything I have. Do you want my soul as well?

I’m just asking. Wow. This place is nice. The stained-glass windows, the statues of Jesus, Mary, the saints, and angels. The atmosphere here could stop any sinner in his tracks. This looks way better than the church I go to.

You don’t attend a heretical church, do you?

No, here’s what it looks like.

Oh, it’s not bad. It just has a simpler look to it. Let’s go up to the altar and pray while no one is around. Well no one besides God.

Okay…well? Is anything coming to mind? I can’t hear your thoughts for some reason.

I’m concentrating on prayer. I didn’t hear your prayers either. Is it me or are some of our thoughts audible to us while others are silent?

It seems that way, but we do hear the important parts.

That’s right. Hey, do you bring your family to church too?

No, I just go by myself.

I bring my family and friends to church. When there’s someone who isn’t strong in their faith or worships the wrong one, I bring them here to try to convert them.

What are you an evangelist?

No, not at all. I’ve only converted a few of the people I know.

That’s great. I’m sure God is happy…with…you…

What is it?

I save people money and help them get the help they need. You help save souls. Which one do you think is more important?

You do help more people than I do.

What does it matter when I don’t help them with what really matters? I don’t even think that I put God first like how I’m supposed to.

If you think that’s bad, I don’t even try to care about people. I only try to help those I’m comfortable with. I can see why that’s so bad now.

At least that isn’t as bad as divorcing people from numbers and generalizations. I always thought of people in terms of ideologies and I never took into account their unique personalities and situations. Everyone was just a different version of an archetype that I read in a psychology book in my mind.

Oh come on. Just look at the bigger picture. Because you help so many people with their problems, they can now focus on God and the afterlife.

But most people don’t do that. How about you look at the bigger picture. You’ve put all your friends and family on the narrow path of salvation that few people find and you’re putting me on it too.

If I did, then stop putting yourself down.

How about you stop putting down the importance of what you do?

Are we really arguing for each other on who is the better person?

We are, and you know I’m right.

And you know that I’m right as well.

Fine.

Fine.

…I guess those prayers helped after all.

And in so little time. He usually takes a while to answer them.

I guess we should put an extra donation.

We’ll go half and half.

I’ll donate forty dollars. You can buy me dinner later.

That’s not fair! I know you’re going to make it pricey.

Deal with it.

At least that was good for us. What do you think?

I think we’re being followed.

I think it’s your stereotyping of people that’s getting to you.

No, it isn’t.

I’ll look-oh we might have some trouble.

Told you. You deal with them.

“Hey, man. I remember you when we were kids.”

“Oh yeah? Do you remember what happened last time you snuck up behind us?”

“Yeah, and I remember, but you’re alone now.”

“And? I don’t need anyone else to beat-oh you brought along two of your boyfriends. How great.”

I’m going to need your help with this.

What am I supposed to do? I can’t fight.

Then what was all of that big talk about kicking my butt?

I’m still going to do that.

Watch out! Punch! Left! Kick! Duck!

Ow! I can’t do all of this at once!

Neither can I but maybe we can if we join our minds into one…Ready?

Ready.

Punch! Kick! Elbow! Pull! Punch! Left! Right! Left! Duck! Uppercut! Kick! Punch!

We did it!

“Ya’ll better fix yourselves up. If I see you again, it better be in that church praying for forgiveness.”

“What are you?!”

“That’s none of your business now get out of here!”

Look at them run. See, what did I tell you?

That calls for a little celebration. What do you think?

Are you just saying that because I’m buying?

Well, you don’t have to.

I will. It wouldn’t be manly of me if I didn’t.

Oh brother.

How about we try this sandwich place in town?

What do they serve?

Sandwiches.

I know-

I know what you meant. They have all kinds of sandwiches that are hard to find outside of the city.

At least it’s in a better area.

There are so many people here.

Remember to keep your head down. We don’t want to start a fuss.

Alright.

Let me try to remember what I got last time that was good. Uh…buffalo chicken, egg salad, grilled shark, some kind of double sandwich, uh…get an Italian sausage with gravy.

Okay. Oh man. The food smells great.

“Italian sausage?”

“That’s for me!”

“Here-oh!”

Dang it, you idiot. I told you to keep your head down. He almost dropped our sandwich.

I’m too used to bringing my head up to talk to people.

“Thank you!”

People are looking at us now. Keep your head down and we’ll eat somewhere else.

Where do you have in mind?

The only place that I know that is relatively empty is the garden park a couple blocks away from here.

Why is it relatively empty?

It’s a garden park. It smells like flowers and vegetables.

I love that smell.

Then I’m going to need you to make it seem good to me because the smell is irritating to me some days.

This place looks amazing. There’s a garden house fields to play and dozens of flowers. It’s amazing that this place exists in the city.

How about we sit over there on that bench near those roses?

Sure. Now it’s time to chow down. Yum! This is so good! What are you doing with my hand?

Hold on.

Why did you pick this flower?

Because I looked at it and I thought of you. Plus, you said you liked the smell of flowers and from what I can pull from your memories, you like these kinds of flowers.

I love it. Thank you.

You’re welcome. Remember to keep your head down. We don’t want anyone seeing our face…well maybe just yours in particular. I’m kidding of course!

I know. That guy was scared to see me.

I thought he was scared to see a pretty girl’s face attached to my ugly mug.

You’re not ugly. I know from your memories that there’s a girl in that shop that always likes looking at you.

That doesn’t mean anything. I’m only interested in girls that I talk to.

You’re always talking to me.

Well, that’s because I’m forced to-but that doesn’t mean I don’t like you! I think you’re a great person.

Do you really think that?

You know if I’m lying.

Then why are we still together like this?

I don’t know. Maybe there will be a challenge ahead of us that will test us.

I hope not. I’m not sure if I can handle challenges that make me distrust people.

Hey, you know me. You know my thoughts now. Even if I do something bad, I’ll make it up.

Okay. I trust you.

Now can we please go home? We’ve had to go to the bathroom since this morning.

I hate doing that like this.

Why? We’ve showered and dressed together.

But this is disgusting like this.

I’ll be quiet.

But I know you’ll be feeling it.

I know we’ll be crapping ourselves soon if you don’t move it! Pick your poison.

Okay, fine!

See? That wasn’t so bad.

I guess not.

So we’re cool with not holding it in for so long?

You’ll probably have to convince me again.

Dang it.

Should we go out for dinner? How can we hide our face in public for long periods of time?

We did it at work, but most people knew about it. Do you want to make dinner?

Is this another woman joke?

Half and half. I want to see what you can make.

I’m in the mood for breakfast. How about I make blueberry pancakes?

Sounds great.

Let me see if we have what we need and…we do. Should I start making it?

Yes. I’m thinking about going out again.

Where to?

That garden park again. Did you see those lights in the trees and greenery? Those light up every night.

I’d love to go!

Great. Let’s speed up making these pancakes then.

You can’t just speed up cooking. You know I’ve noticed that my way of talking is different from how I usually talk.

How so?

I’ve been talking more in laymen speak than the more proper, educated way that I usually talk in.

Maybe it’s because your mind and ours are almost completely connected?

Or maybe talking to you is making me dumb. I mean you know the way I feel now. I would never have dreamed of feeling this way towards another person just a few days ago.

You’re having a similar effect on me too. I’ve changed just as much as you have.

But you know me. You’ve done more for me than I have for you.

That’s true and I’m saying anything about doing more, it’s about the change. You know I wonder why you always you want to contradict me on things like this. First, we argued about each other and now we’re arguing for the other person. I’m trying to find a reason inside your head. Is it because-

It’s because I don’t trust myself anymore. The things I’ve learned these past couple days has completely destroyed the world I once knew. Now…I don’t know what to think.

You know what to think. Stop lying to yourself. You know what you did wrong, so now you know what to do. Even if you do the wrong thing again, you can just apologize and start over.

I don’t know.

Trust me about this. You got me to like you even after we hated each other for so many months. That has to count for something. I know you don’t like yourself anymore, but you have to love yourself a little. If you don’t, then I will.

Okay…thanks.

You’re welcome. Now pay attention to those pancakes because they might be getting a bit too burnt.

They are! I’m sorry.

Don’t worry about it. I like my food well done.

Stop lying.

No, it’s good. Great even! I’ve never tasted pancakes this good.

It tastes too burnt.

Yeah they are.

I’m glad you’re being honest with me now.

I was being honest!

Sure. Should we go out now?

Yeah. The lights should be on by the time we get there.

Okay. Wait, I just pulled up a memory that says you’ve never seen the lights?

Not at all. I’ve been waiting for someone to go there with.

Someone special?

You could say that. You ready to see them?

I can already see them from here. It’s like a completely different place.

It’s better than I imagined. Look at how the lights change and how they complement the colors of the flowers.

I know you want to compare me to them.

I do.

Say it then.

Why? You already hear it in my thoughts.

I want to hear it from you.

It’s cornier than corn!

Say it!

Okay. You’re more beautiful than all of the flowers and lights in the garden. Happy now?

Very. Aren’t you?

I guess so.

Guess?

I am happy even though I’m living like this with you. I wouldn’t mind living the rest of my life like this.

I wouldn’t mind either. Do you…just want to enjoy this moment in silence for a couple more minutes before we go home?

Yeah, I’d like that.

I knew you would. That’s how I got the idea.

Ha!

 

 

 

But from the beginning of creation, ‘God made them male and female.’ ‘For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.’ So they are no longer two but one flesh.” Mark 10: 6-8

Chapter 3 – Together as One

Julia.

James? What is it? Is it time to get up already?

Yeah. Hey, don’t try to go back to sleep! Why do you always have to put my side of our body on the bottom?

Because that’s where you belong.

Well, I’m burnt.

That’s right. Now, go back to sleep.

We can’t. We’re so close to being back to normal. I can feel it.

Do you want to leave me this badly?

What?

You’re the only person I’ve met who I can trust completely. I know what you think and what you’re going to do. There aren’t any consequences for staying like this until we die. This is perfect for us.

Stop thinking this nonsense! We can’t keep living like this.

We’ll find a way to make it work.

I’m-hey! Let me get up!

No. You’re mine until we die.

We can live well together separated.

But it won’t be like this.

You trust me, right?

Of course.

Then you know that I will never do you wrong.

Sure, but-

You don’t have to know everything I’m thinking to trust me.

But I want to.

Then you don’t trust me.

I do trust you!

Is it just because you can hear my thoughts? It sounds like it. Trust is vital in all relationships, so if you truly love me, then let me go.

But…I might lose you.

You know for a fact that fear bothers me too. I will do everything in my power to stay with you until the end.

But I won’t have you like this.

You will if you marry me.

I…I do.

I didn’t kneel or anything, but okay. This is great. Now all you have to do is let me have my control. Hey, I’m thinking of a song my parents used to sing to me during rainy days. Are you thinking about it too?

I am. Sing it with me then.

I can’t sing.

You’re not singing out loud and I love listening to your voice.

…okay.

 

I can see it in your eyes

In your tears

All of the suffering you’ve been through

All of the pain you’ve felt

 

I can feel your sadness

Your anger and your regrets

This world is a non-stop place for sorrow

Like an everlasting storm

 

I’ll be here for you

To hold you when things get tough

When hope seems far away!

I’ll always hold your hand

Through the happy moments and the sad

When everyone else has left, I’ll be right here!

 

The clouds cry with you

Angels shed tears as you suffer

So don’t believe you are broken beyond repair

And know that you will never be alone

 

I’ll stay with you through it all

Heal the bleeding in your heart

Walk with you through the storms

Nothing will stop me from getting you to smile

 

I’ll be here for you

To hold you when things get tough

When hope seems far away!

I’ll always hold your hand

Through the happy moments and the sad

When everyone else has left, I’ll be right here!

 

When the light seems so far away,

Hold onto me!

When all seems lost,

I will always stand with you!

 

I’ll be here for you

To hold you when things get tough

When hope seems far away!

I’ll always hold your hand

Through the happy moments and the sad

When everyone else has left, I’ll be right here!

 

Right here, always with you forever…

 

You know what the song means. You know how I feel. Trust me.

…Let me think about it for a second.

Eh…fine. Just don’t take waste time.

…Okay, I think I’ve made up my mind. Did you hear what I decided? Hey, are you awake? You have to be because I am. Ow. I guess you aren’t. That’s strange. I do like staying like this. I could stay lay down with you forever…but…I know I can’t. I’m sorry that I fooled myself into thinking we could stay like this forever. It’s just my mistrust of people, but I know that you won’t disappoint me. I trust you…

“Hey, stop hitting me…”

“I didn’t hit you because I didn’t feel it…”

“Wait! Ow!”

“That’s what you get for touching me where you’re not supposed to.”

“We’re going to be married! What’s so wrong with-Nevermind, our bodies are apart! My house is back to normal too!”

“Huh?! You’re right-”

“Ow! What now?”

“I wanted to be the one to kiss you first.”

“That’s too bad. Ow!”

“Ow! You can’t hit me!”

“I can defend myself. Is it really going to be like this?”

“It will be, and you can’t stop me. Hahaha! Hey!”

“You don’t have my strength anymore. You’re back to having the strength of a nerd. Haha! Ow! Why did you hit me there? I guess you don’t want kids.”

“I can still get you. Hahaha!”

We got married soon after then began to raise a family. We still argue with each other now and then, but who doesn’t with their closest friends and family? We thank God every day of our lives for the blessing he gave us that we thought was a curse. Even though we know life will have its difficulties when we will feel weak, we will stay faithful to one another until the very end.

 

The End

 

What is the mark of love for your neighbor? Not to seek what is for your own benefit, but what is for the benefit of the one loved, both in body and in soul.

-St. Basil the Great

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#RedPillReligion Personal Experience as a proof of God to an individual.

Join us tonight as we respond to Genetically Modified Skeptic’s video named My Personal Experience with God (As an Atheist)

I’m an atheist, but I’ve personally experienced God in the same way that many religious people have. I left Christianity and my “personal relationship with Jesus Christ” a while back even though I had those experiences, and I think I have good reasons for that. The argument from personal experience is thrown at me often, so I wanted to have this on the record, as well as explain why personal experience isn’t evidence for god.

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Truths that are hidden, but plain to see.

These are just thoughts I have to explain through reason alone why these beliefs I hold are true. I encourage you all to look at your beliefs and thoroughly examine them to make sure you’re living the right way that’s not only best for yourself but for the people you care about as well.


Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” Isaiah 1:18 (KJV)


It is self-evident that Christianity is true. Christianity itself focuses on rebirth, renewal, and redemption for the sake of love. Every day of our life we should be improving ourselves for the love of ourselves and others. We all make mistakes and do things every day to make up for things we haven’t done before. When we are older, we are hopefully wiser and a better person than we were before. By then, we should be completely different, but a better person. It makes sense then that the religion with the most historical and loving religion is the true one.


It is self-evident that Original Sin (in the Catholic sense) exists. When people make mistakes or do generally evil things, the people younger than them will usually suffer and have to make up for their mistakes. If a parent collects too much debt, their children will have to pay it off. If a government enacts certain laws or does something that damages the country, the youth will have to step up and take responsibility. What is done in the past always affects the present, so something as big as Original Sin would affect countless generations until it can be eventually removed through God’s grace.


It is self-evident that good and evil exists. Most actions will have a positive or negative effect on the person or people. If the action has an overall positive effect, then it is good and opposite if it is evil. It is good to work and stay active in order to make the most out of our lives. It is evil to take advantage of others and be lazy and waste our lives on vanity and temporary pleasures. The only actions that could be gray are personal opinion or if the actions have equally good and evil consequences. Someone’s favorite color, genre of book, music, game, and career choice are all personal opinions. If there is a scenario where two equally good lives are at risk and only one can be saved, then saving one person’s life is the best choice even though someone else’s life is lost. It would be best if both are saved, but in this event, the best scenario would be if at least one survives. This scenario is a bit uneven since a good action is still taken but I still think this can give you the right idea.


It is self-evident that the truth never changes. If it did, then the previous version of the truth would be a lie and this truth would be a lie as well because it contains similar elements of the previous truth. The truth would have to be unchanging and constant to be always true.


It is also self-evident that the truth is living. Living beings react differently to different situations and the truth does the same thing while staying constant. The truth has to be living in order to make all lies false. It can also be said that love is like the truth because it always stays true to its purpose.

It is self-evident that since love and truth are living that there is a being that embodies this. We call this God. It is self-evident then that God is the creator of the universe not because He had to, but because He loves. Love by its nature is meant to be shared with others to be enjoyed. This is why it should be also self-evident that God made everything out of love to share His love and because of this we can say that it is self-evident that God is all good.


It is self-evident that seemingly good actions can be evil ones. Saving a life is usually a good action, but if an individual saves a homicidal maniac for their own nefarious plans, then the action of saving a life becomes tainted.

It is self-evident that seemingly bad actions can be good ones. Killing someone is usually an evil act, but if someone kills an active child molester who never wants to change, then the act of killing has become an act of mercy for the potential victims and the molester so they cannot commit more disgusting acts.


It is self-evident that good will prevail in the end. Good people will help each other grow and prosper. Evil people will only look out for themselves and their own agenda while forsaking everyone else. Evil people also have a tendency to fight each other since they only care about themselves. Good people, on the other hand, will help each other understand the viewpoint of the other and put their minor differences aside for the greater good. Thus, because evil is self-destructive and good is pure and understanding, evil will be destroyed and good will prevail in the end.

It can then be inferred from here that good is eternal and evil is temporary. Since we’ve already established that God is good, then it can then be said with confidence that God is eternal. (This along with the previous self-evident truth about good and evil actions rules out the possibility of God committing evil actions)


It is self-evident that medicine and doctors don’t save lives, they only extend them. There has never been a case of a person living far beyond the normal life expectancy. New viruses and diseases will mutate and adapt to the medication and practices we invent to counter them. Because of that, every person on earth will die at some point no matter how far medical research goes.

This, however, is not to say that doctors shouldn’t stop extending lives since life is precious and beyond value.


It is self-evident that demons exist. There are many religions that have rituals and prayers to get rid of demons and possessed people. If a person is possessed, they will exhibit behaviors that psychiatrists can’t figure out. They will usually recommend a priest if their condition cannot be medically explained. Demonic possession has a long history and the cure to them is the work of a priest with the Vatican having the most experienced and famous exorcists. It is then evident that demons exist and if we’re talking about the most effective religion, then it would be Christianity and then Catholicism if we’re talking about the most effective version.

(It is then self-evident that God exists when using this example. If demons fear and bend to the power of God, then God must exist.)

It is self-evident that angels exist if demons exist. Demons are just fallen angels after all. Demons are fallen angels due to their similar abilities but angels will use them for good while demons will usually do evil and sometimes go against the will of God.


(Needs some work but good enough) It is self-evident that souls exist and that humans are more than flesh and bone. There are many cases of out of body experiences and paranormal research where humans will see the afterlife or be operating without a physical form. Human bodies can also be possessed by other spirits (such as demons as stated above), which implies that the human body is a tool that can be used by forces that don’t reside within it and aren’t visible to the human eye. It can then be reasoned from this that humans have souls and since souls can’t be possessed, souls are inferred to be the primary essence of a person.


It is self-evident that everyone lives with faith in their lives. You can never truly know how another person feels and thinks about you. You never know if the scientific and religious truths being taught to us are being taught by honest people who don’t have other motives or if they got part of their research wrong. You never know when the weather will go wrong and if you’ll be killed in the storm. It is then therefore obvious that we all have faith in people and reality so we do not live in constant fear and worry.


It is self-evident that the Church is a supernatural organization. Besides charity, the Church hands out eternal salvation to lost souls, truths about the spiritual, and the power to dictate morality given to it by God. It can exorcise demons, perform miracles, and act as a singular body that unites all of its members under one set of major beliefs (The United Body of Christ).


It is self-evident that God would’ve given supreme authority to an institution (which is the Church) when it comes to teachings and doctrines. A book or story can have many interpretations of it, which would and has lead to many sects/versions/denominations of Christianity. This is why the Church must have and teach the correct interpretation of the scriptures, history, and traditions. It must also be free from error thanks to God so that it will never lead God’s people astray.


It is self-evident that the Church would have scandals within it. A powerful organization such as this would have members who try to take advantage of what it offers and the influence it has on people. The holiness of the Church would be envied by others who would make up rumors and lies about it. Also, the Church would seem like an impossible organization to be a part of if it didn’t have members who are still susceptible to the temptations of sin.


It is self-evident that the Virgin Mary was eternally a virgin and born without Original Sin. Mary would’ve had to been born sinless thanks to the grace of God in order for Jesus to be the second Adam and the perfect sacrifice for our sins. The virgin birth is what also makes the birth of Jesus special and different to separate him from the rest of humanity.

It is self-evident from this example that Mary has special privilege and power, which is why she is called the Queen of Heaven and Saints. From this, we can say that it would be wise to pray to her with our intentions so that she can help us. To think that she isn’t special in any way or to think that she can’t help us is to insult her and you don’t want to insult a person’s mother especially since she is the Mother of God.


It is self-evident that the Church tries its best to mirror God in order to be what it’s supposed to be, which is the beautiful bride of Christ and/or the body of Christ where His followers reside. It can be reasoned that like God there is a singular head leading the Church. The Pope makes sense in this regard. It also makes sense because the Pope can only be infallible only when he is speaking from the seat of Peter, which allows him to be of one mind with God. Even though the Church can speak infallibly, only the head can institute new doctrines just like how God reveals truths that are new to us.


It is self-evident that the Christian denomination that doesn’t try to separate the Body of Christ (the Church) is the true version of Christianity. The mortal sin of schism separates people from the Body of Christ. It is used to create different denominations when a group of people is in disagreement with the Church. They make their own denomination and claim to be the true Church, but nothing good can be founded upon sin even if it’s done in the name of Christ. Since the Catholic Church has never committed a schism, it can be reasoned that the Catholic Church is the true version of Christianity.


It is self-evident that salvation can only be obtained through the true Church (which we have shown is the Catholic Church). It is this Church that God has tasked to teach and lead souls to salvation. God, Himself lives through the Church and is the supreme head of all of it since He leads it and instructs it. Because of this, a person must be in union with this Church to enjoy the fruits of eternal salvation.

This is not to say that a non-Catholic Christian or even non-Christians can’t be saved. Through the grace of God, if you die while saying a perfect contrition (repentance of sin based on a love of God rather than fear of Hell), then you will enter into eternal life after being cleansed. If you’re a non-Christian who wants to get baptized and enter into the Church, then the same will happen with you.


It is self-evident that people will live willfully ignorant lives because they are content with what they know. This is true for atheists who can have a good set of morals but refuse to learn more about the existence of God and don’t give Him the respect and honor He deserves. Thus, their actions aren’t morally good. This is also true of Christians who will choose what they think is true about Christianity and pick whatever version/denomination they feel comfortable with. These people don’t go all the way in learning about the truths that they need to know. If you can read this, then you have access to this information through the internet and can get it for free.

(It is known that this willful ignorance can damn a soul to Hell. It is then inferred that someone who has the opportunity to learn more but chooses to stay uninformed might be damned as well. I am, however, unsure if this is completely true and might just be judged on a case by case basis.)

 

This post originally came from my blog, Albert Oon: Behind the Stories and is updated every now and then. Be sure to check there for more when new ones come out. http://albertoonbts.blogspot.com/p/truths-that-are-self-evident.html

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